A Life Through a Lens

Last of Maine..Jason style

2011-10-20T15:01:00.002-06:00

Maine Maine Maine..again..

2011-10-20T14:54:00.003-06:00

Jason took these ones. My lens is filthy.

Maine Maine Maine

2011-10-20T14:44:00.002-06:00

Must Sees:
*Old Orchard Beach
*Two Lights
*Smiling Hills Farm
*Portland Headlight
*Downtown Portland

Florence & the Machine with U2

2011-10-14T11:37:00.003-06:00

Florence stole the show with her orgasmic...I mean.. Organic sound. She acted high the whole time. But I was still in love with her. She sang "You Got the Love" and "Cosmic Love" and it sounded incredible. As usual, the girls in front of us were flirting with the body guards and winking at the guitar player..drunk already? YES.

U2 came on and played every possible song you would love and could want them to play.. (except for Electrical Storm) And Bono was hot as every. We went backstage and made out. Me and Bono that is. Jason took pictures...and lost them of course. Silly Jason.

Lemp Loven

2011-10-13T23:48:00.002-06:00

St.Louis City Museum 1

2011-10-13T23:28:00.003-06:00

A ferris wheel on a roof more than 12 stories high?? IM IN. (For further explination read #3)

City Museum 2

2011-10-13T23:25:00.002-06:00

The St.Louis City Museum 3

2011-10-13T23:21:00.002-06:00

This a friendly playground for ALL ages. The creator died not too long ago. What a brilliant mind to bring many the joy of Originality. All is recycled. All is raw talent. A Dream within a Dream. My favorite place (Easily) on Earth.

St.Louis :)

2011-10-13T23:10:00.003-06:00

This is why I love You St.Louis.

New York City, New York

2011-10-13T22:55:00.002-06:00

New York was lovely. I was (once again) spontaneous. Jason and I went one random weekend. We probably made that decision a couple days before we ran off. Like most of our escapes . . . We loved
*The diversity*The weird people*The style and lack of that makes its own style*The small shops and Artists*The BIG buildings*The many scenes that stereotype New York (THEY'RE REAL!)*We could walk ANYWHERE!*The Crazy cab drivers. Yes they were ethnic.Yes, they drove as if not in our country.*The Food
*The Acsents

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Audrey quotes

2011-09-02T15:26:00.003-06:00

"I heard a definition once: Happiness is health and a short memory! I wish I'd invented it, because it is very true."
"If my world were to cave in tomorrow, I would look back on all the pleasures, excitements and worthwhilenesses I have been lucky enough to have had. Not the sadness, not my miscarriages or my father leaving home, but the joy of everything else. It will have been enough."
"There are certain shades of limelight that can wreck a girl's complexion."
"On the one hand maybe I’ve remained infantile, while on the other I matured quickly, because at a young age I was very aware of suffering and fear."
"There is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. I can convey just as much sex appeal, picking apples off a tree or standing in the rain."

--Audrey Hepburn

No One Can Wear It Like Audrey

2010-03-10T13:28:00.007-07:00

Recently I've been re-reading some books about Audrey Hepburn. I didn't think that someone so beautiful could be just as gorgeous inside. She lived what seemed to be a very charmed life. But that's only a superficial look into those dark brown eyes. She lived in poverty, she shares an experience that shakes the physical mind:

As Audrey was coming home from sneaking notes to the allies she recalls a traumatic story of her younger years. She was stopped by a German officer who were taking away random women. Audrey luckily fled with her life, but it still a moment of deep thought when she later experienced a wartime life of bombs over head and this experience as well:
(after she was searched and almost taken away "She raced through alleyways and found a damp, dark cellar in which to take refuge. A tiny opening let in a little air, and Audrey thought she just might be able to pull through with the help of a crust of hard bread and a bottle of apple juice she had with her. She rationed her bread and juice carefully knowing she might need them for a long time. A ray of light broke through occasionally; she soon lost all sense of time. When tanks rumbled and Nazi vehicles shook the cellar's foundations, she froze, rooted to the spot, terrified of being recaptured. This reaction was to have a long-term effect...she feared the refuge might be bombed. She fled into the night, passing German armored vehicles guarding the deserted streets."
Eventually we find out she was there for about a month. She suffered long term health problems. And when some dare ask the question how she was so skinny, many, including herself, just say because of the war...and good eating habits.
she later puts a positive spin to it with the liberation period.
May 5th, 1945 "Audrey was 16. She danced in the streets to welcome the Allied troops. 'I stood there, just looking at them'. she recalled. 'The joy of hearing English spoken, the incredible feeling of being free, it was something very deep. Freedom was something you could smell. Freedom was the smell of an English cigarette.' "
This is from a wonderful book I’ve read called "Audrey Hepburn: A Life in Pictures." Foreword by Hubert Givenchy
Another moment that was a highlight of Audrey's life was her service. She worked with UNICEF as a spokesperson for a number of years until her death. She found the loneliness she saw in her life. She was loved by millions, and betrayed by the same. She was elegant and caring and mistreated and looked upon for her physical beauty. She LOVED dance over anything but was too tall to do it. Her favorite moments were to dance on screen. Her acting wasn't the best, but she gave it her all. She was known and HIRED for her presence more than her talents. A sad but true blow to her career. When she walked her sons to school, she say that it was not the life for her children and as a mother to have her fame. She soon left the famous roles and became a mother above all. Suffering so many miscarriages, she finally saw her first son who lived and felt so thankful..commenting on how she couldn’t stop staring at him for hours thinking "Do I really get to Keep him?! He's ALL mine now?!" She loved children. When her son was born, he stared at his mother. In his wonderful book he noted "You would stare too, if your mother was Audrey Hepburn." It talked about many sacred moments of Audrey's intimate life and the horrors she saw around the world, especially Africa. I conclude with the last of stories, that is my favorite. They were giving food to the poor in Africa. These children had no food for days. As Audrey stood to the side, she recognized that a child was staring at her, as she was about to finally receive her food, she instead, ran to Audrey and embraced her with her little body and thin limbs. Audrey noticed the need for physical love and assurance surpassed that of food and human necessities. The photographer at the time almost took a picture, but felt it was too sacred of a moment to photograph as they choked up.
Audrey understood love because of the lack in her life. She gave all she could. She was always polite to all people, all classes. She was dearest friends with the richest and to the opposite. Her best friends were those who stood by her side, such as her makeup artist she loved so much. & Her children.
She died in 1993. Her son remembers one of her lasts pleas. "Oh Seanie, I'm so scared." I stood there, holding her with all my might, as i felt huge chunks of me falling inside." When he told her that it was critical she laid there in a peaceful state and said calmly "How disappointing."

I leave with Audrey's last words as reported in this book.
She was asked if she had any regrets she said:
" No..but I cannot understand why so much suffering...for the children." "I do regret not meeting the Dalai Lama. He's probably the closest thing to God we have on this earth. So much humor...so much compassion..humanity..."
she fell asleep and died on Jan 20th of 1993.
Many who do not know the story of Audrey rob themselves of knowing a divine person. Many who flaunt Audrey memorabilia for her looks, not knowing her story, rob themselves of a superficial life of beauty, only on the outside. So now that you know just a little more about Audrey, here's a few pictures to refect on with a deeper meaning..

Music makes one feel....free

2010-02-08T18:51:00.003-07:00

just the 30 second mark for the magic to begin.

Why I Dye Red

2009-12-16T22:46:00.000-07:00

ღ because she's who I want to be ღ

Bright Lights

2009-12-16T22:19:00.001-07:00

so iv'e been addicted to this song. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n79B3FHi0Fs&feature=related)- I barley watched "Across the Universe" with a friend in SLC so we stayed up till 4 watching movies. I didn't have time to get to Funny face =( And this movie was alright..meh. Maybe im being generous saying that. Oh Well.

we ate on the roof resturaunt and made stories of the custodians cleaning in the next building and talking about how they should conserve energy. i spent the night there. and her cat bit my elbow.
oh yes, i love Collective Soul, Audioslave, Live..and so when they did a concert together i cried because i couldnt go. I would do anything to hear this live =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFX2pk-FtEU&feature=PlayList&p=9C4C6F30F2C84A66&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=38

Real Sound

2009-12-10T22:46:00.000-07:00

I got to see the sounds with Jess. I really wanted to dance and hear better-and step back to the back. But i kept getting good shots, so hell. I stayed in front, wishing that Maja would lean towards me and whisper in my ear how she became so cool. That didn't happen.

ThanksGiving in OK City

2009-12-10T22:25:00.000-07:00

I enjoyed a lovely Thanksgiving with a family I practically lived with for several years. Momma gave me some cool stuff from Jordan (where her husband currently lives).
They bring back the many nights of blasting 100.3 the Beat for Hip-Hop and R&B. I miss the 3 big girls (Sonya made it in this picture!) The 3 little girls were there (Whitney , Mel Mel-pregnant one, Chelsea) and Chad slipped out and Junior is in Arkansas. The Rest are still in St.Louis. I kind of miss living near the ghettos. I don't miss picking up white powder in a plastic bag. I do miss whitney calling me white trash, wigger, cracker, and the big girls calling me a honkey. Funny how the negative can have such a loving meaning too. oh yes, and hiding in the tub from the electric company for sneaking cable and electricity. I remember the house fire. Chickens. WindShield Breaking. Almost getting ran over. Braiding my hair till I cried. coffee. sneaking to the roof. And chad being a little punk.